Wow, what an outpouring of love and support I received yesterday! Even the CEO of our huge company sent me a note, and I received one from someone I've never met and I felt honored. Somehow the message is being sent on to those who weren't on my list and for those of you who have asked, of course I don't mind that, I'll take all the prayers and good wishes I can get right now. The experience yesterday reminded me of some words I wrote my dear sister, Marilyn, two years ago this month when she was diagnosed with breast cancer. It went something like this: "God gave me a mind-picture once that our lives are kind of like buckets. Sometimes our buckets are all shiny and new and strong, and they firmly hold all the love and grace God pours into them and it fills them up and splashes out in blessing on those around us. But sometimes our buckets get rusty, bent, battered, and full of holes. It may feel we can hold nothing, much less be a blessing to someone. But at those times, God's love comes like a gentle, mighty river, surrounds and lifts us, and carries us along. We are no less filled with him, no less loved, cared for, cherished and blessed when we don't feel right or look right or do or say or think all the "right" things." Yesterday I realized, and this is a no-brainer, really, it's just that I've never been on the receiving end of it, every one of you who expressed your good wishes and support are part of that mighty river. It's a truly remarkable thing to experience and I'm so blessed by it - thank you again.
Well, I got 6 hours of sleep last night - twice the norm for the last few weeks! Have you ever thought about what a blessing sleep is? My guess is that if you've ever done without it, at least you recognize that the lack of it feels somewhat like a curse. I've always envied those who can get by on 5-6 hours a night but I've sure never been one of them. Did you know the birds start singing at about 3:30 am? Puts a whole new spin on "early bird". The surgeon's office did call yesterday so I should hear this morning about when I can see him and that will be one more step forward. Am hoping to delay this long enough to see my son, who's ready to come visit as soon as I call, yay! I'll introduce you to my beautiful kids and grands soon, I've never been a braggy mom or grandma, but fair warning, I'm about to be.
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Val, I've been away from email and just now discovered your journal. At the moment, I am teared up with hope for your further diagnosis. Thank you for sharing this trial so openly with all of us. Your response to this situation, both fears and hopes, draws us together. Already others of us are blessed as we come to know even more fully who you really are, and consequently the Lord you know so well.
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