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May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" Romans 15:13







Sunday, September 12, 2010

Bump in the Road


I couldn't resist - just one more little px of Rosita - and this is my last week with her! It's been fun and I'm SO grateful for all the rides friends and family have given me but I get to start driving a week from tomorrow and can't wait.

Well, I had my first followup visit with the neurosurgeon a few weeks ago and learned that the bump I still have is spinal fluid. We're not sure whether it's from an active leak or just residual from after the surgery so we'll just watch and wait for the next few months. I did learn that the brain produces spinal fluid and the membrane holds it in. The brain floats in that fluid and if something causes a drop in the fluid level the brain can settle on the temporal bones and cause ginormous headaches - that's why they keep people flat for awhile after a lumbar puncture. Because my bone tumor was right up against the brain on the back side of the orbit it created a large hole in the membrane, and with the removal of so much of the bone there was nothing to attach the titanium mesh to - at least that's my limited understanding of it. It wasn't happy news at first because we thought it was going to require another craniotomy to repair it - but we learned there's a good chance (over 50%) that it won't require that and of course, it's what we're really hoping and praying for. The plan is to wait until late Nov for an MRI, see the surgeon again in early Dec and go from there. For those of you who have prayed me through this I really ask for your prayers about this as well - I can hardly stand the thought of another brain surgery right now.

We saw more trees changing color this week and it's almost time to pick apples again, we have quite the bumper crop so there will be an applesauce-making day coming up soon. That cooking-apple fragrance, plus that of the fresh roasted chili peppers is the song of autumn to our noses! And I do love these beautiful fall days, it just doesn't get any better, I don't think - am hoping we hang onto this weather for a couple more months. Am not anxious at all for the winter months.

Sent with love and best wishes to each of you and especially to our Jewish friends who are celebrating the high holidays (I call them holy days).

Val

Monday, August 30, 2010

Check This Out!!


What do you think of my new wheels?!! OK, not mine, but it's what I get to ride to work in every morning. My friend, Eleanor, owns it, lives near me, works at CH, has been kind enough to offer me rides each morning, and we share a common love for racing. She, however, is much further down the speedway than I since she really does race this beautiful little Porsche at High Plains Raceway. I have to be happy with memories of our little Javelin on a straightaway in Wyoming and street drags - oh, yeah, Mom, I forgot to tell you about that. Seriously, I never had a good enough car of my own to race but borrowed Gary's when we were first married a few times - oh, yeah, hon, I also forgot to tell you about that - and then we got our little AMC Javelin and had fun with it for a few years. Anyway, how lucky could I be? I told Eleanor I'm not so sure I even want to drive again! I have to say a shiny little red Porsche convertible is eye-catching, I've never been looked at so much in my life, it's kind of fun. And thank you, thank you, THANK YOU, Eleanor, for all the rides! I really am anxious to drive again, though, only 3 more weeks, I can't wait - there's something very sweetly satisfying about getting back to normal routines again.

So - I missed an entire week on this blog site so I think that means either I'm getting better or getting busier - or quite probably, both. In fact, I have my first week of full time work under the belt and it's going pretty well, even with our move - and it's been great to see so many of my old friends again. We survived another computer crash at home and I should have entitled this "NOTE to SELF - BACK UP COMPUTER!!!" Wouldn't you think it would take just one time to learn that lesson? No, because when our computer is back up again I get busy again, think it will last forever again, etc etc. This time, however, we actually did back up some of our files the night before it crashed so we at least still have our pxs - we lost several years' worth earlier this year and that was heartbreaking.

Well, if anyone is still reading this blog I wish you a good week in every way. Hope it brings good health, happiness, close and good relationships, satisfaction in work and also some fun.

Blessings!
from Val


Monday, August 16, 2010

Red Letter Day!


This was really a turning-point day for me - worked in the office this morning, at home all afternoon, it's 5:10 pm, I had no nap for the FIRST day since my first surgery AND I still have some energy! Wow - I know every day won't be this good but it's wonderful to feel a little more back to normal.

Well, I promised to tell you if the flu kit worked and it did work wonders so here it is:


  • Occillococcinum homeopathic granules - an OTC remedy for flu that comes in little tubes of tiny white beads that almost look and taste like candy

  • Immu-Guard - a blend of essential oils by Julia Rose Botanicals

  • Bio D Mulsion Forte -a suspension that contains 2000 units of Vitamin D per pea-sized drop

  • Dried Elderberries - you make a tea out of these
I purchased the kit last winter from Clinix and was using all the remedies at once last Sunday so am not sure what helped the most but I was able to work Monday from home and was back in the office by Tuesday. I've never had a bad flu before that went away that quickly so am just thankful for whatever it was that helped! It was great to see many friends again at CH2M HILL and begin to ease back into my work schedule. I won't have a regular routine until I'm able to drive again, but at least I'm moving in the right direction.

I read something when we were at Creede that I wanted to share with you - again, this is from Chuck Swindoll's book Come Before Winter. In the entry entitled "The Ghost of Ephraim" he speaks of the Ephraimites - those trained in bow and arrow who had all the resources and none of the guts. They looked great but had no substance, no strength. Instead, they ran on the opening day of battle. He writes: "The sons of Ephraim loved Memorial Day and target practice, but as soon as the going got tough, they ran...discipline and guts were nasty words... Their watchword was ease and their slogan was "Make a Good Appearance". Ephraimites live on, you know. They have invaded the ranks...and until difficulty comes, you cannot spot them. (When) the hot rays of hardship beat upon their back they melt like butter on a hot burner...they opt for the easy way out. They want a medicine man with a quick cure, not direct advice to repent, reestablish biblical relationships, and restore God's method for living. ...many of today's citizens would rather...quit... The quitting habit creates a strange undertow which complicates rather than corrects our difficulties. Before long we begin to resemble Rome in its last days - a magnificent mask of outward, impressive stature... devoid of inner strength...desperately lacking in discipline and determination. There is not an achievement worth remembering that isn't stained with the blood of diligence and etched with the scars of disappointment. To run, to quit, to escape, even to hide solves nothing...it only postpones a reckoning with reality. If you don't like the heat, stay in the kitchen and learn to handle it!"

How very true and how applicable to so many situations today. But it was a reminder of something I've struggled with and at the risk of complicating things too much, I'll tell you that my dilemma has sometimes been this question: when is God trying to develop my perseverance and strength of character by allowing setbacks, problems, crises, etc. and when is he, instead, closing the door and telling me to let something go and turn my time, energy, and focus elsewhere? There are some "givens" I think - such as aiming to always give my best at work and taking responsibility for the welfare and well-being of children in my home. There's no question that I'll "keep on keeping on" no matter how many setbacks there are. But where something hangs in the balance or a potentially life-changing decision needs to be made, how can I be so sure of what I think I should do that I won't be deterred by anything that gets in the way? And especially if my husband and I have really prayed about a major decision but are not in agreement? What I experienced in the last case is that God cares far more about the intentions of my heart than exactly which decision we make or direction we take. He always honors a willing, submissive, obedient heart and will bring blessing and good out of either choice. One of our ministers helped, too, by describing the Christian life as a playing field. The Bible establishes the boundaries of the field. Within it, as players, we may each have a different role, but the field is wide open - we can run full force in whatever direction we think we should go, as long as we stay within the boundaries. Granted, there are many things that might change our direction - but we don't need to expend a lot of energy trying to figure out precisely what steps to take, when.

But I'd love to open this question up and get your feedback - if you've experienced a similar problem how have you dealt with it? What has helped you know whether a setback is a character-building play or an indication that you should quit the game and turn your attention elsewhere? I'd love to get your thoughts on that. I know many of you have had trouble posting a response on this blogsite. I think if you click the little envelope on the right side of the window at the end of this post you can send me an email - or, just email directly to: vvwzoet@hotmail.com.

I wish each of you a wonderful week!

Val


Sunday, August 8, 2010

Back to Work!

I'm WAY behind on this, not sure anyone is reading it anymore but I did intend to get something posted when we returned from Creede. Had a great time, and I'll attach some pictures from that trip. Motorhome was so nice, that really does make traveling (and camping!) much more pleasant. Now we suddenly we find ourselves nearly at the end of summer, with school starting soon or already in session for some. I can't say it was a summer I enjoyed, but on the plus side, at least I hope to be around to enjoy the next one!



Tomorrow is a big day - back to work half time! At least I hope so, had to leave during the service this morning, got hit hard and suddenly with what seems to be the flu. The psalmist, David, wrote in Ps 22 (this is from the Living Bible, vs 14-15) "My strength has drained away like water, all my bones are out of joint. My heart melts like wax, my strength has dried up like sun baked clay..." I bet he had the flu. Add chills to the point of shivering and I could really relate. But I got out my "flu kit" purchased from Clinix last year, some homeopathic remedies and it really does seem to be helping so much - I'll wait until tomorrow and let you know how it works but the one thing I can recommend without hesitation is an OTC by the name of "Oscillococcinum". My friend at work, Sue Saurber, told me about it last winter so I bought enough for all my family and a couple of others besides and the testimonials just from the people I know are pretty amazing. I'm not sure it would be in the miracle drug category, but it sure does seem to help nasty flu symptoms - this is the first time I've had the flu since I learned about it. Problem is, I gave all mine away - fortunately there were 3 tubes of it in the flu kit, thank God for that. I'll be purchasing some more really soon!

Well, dear friends, in case any of you are still checking in on this blog, I have to say I hope with all my heart I won't need to write every day - maybe a once-a-week update will be enough. There are always fun and interesting things (at least to me) that I love to share, so I'll probably keep this up. How can I thank all of you enough for loving and praying me through this, providing support in so many ways far beyond - truly! - what I would ever have dreamed of. I'm not sure I could have made it without that. Thanks to my dear husband who has put up with so much and been my steady rock, to my kids for their time and love and visits, to friends who helped Gary walk this road, to so many who provided meals and household and yard help, to my beautiful Mom for her constant love, prayers, and practical help, to my sisters and brothers for their love and support in SO many ways, to my friends at CH2M HILL and especially John and Monica, to all of you who have held me up with your friendship and prayers. I am so amazingly, incredibly blessed by all of you.

Our minister at the church I used to attend always said at the end of the service, "Go out and make it a good day." I love that - it's a choice each one of us can make each day. I hope we can all go out and make it a good week! And I hope it is one for all of us.
One more verse to leave with you from Ps 9:9-10
"The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you for you, O Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." I give my thanks to Him as well!

Sent with love,
Val
PS - the album pages didn't display the way I wanted them to so I doubt you can read any of the text or captions. If anyone wants to see the full size pages, let me know and I'll email them separately.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Quick Update

How wonderful it's been to be home more than a week...and be able to go out to dinner one day...and breakfast another... and lunch another. Each excursion builds up my endurance and it's great to do things normal people do! So much enjoyed going to church last Sunday, our pastor had a great sermon on fear. They showed a little video clip from Monsters Inc - what's behind the door? Our fears are probably as varied as we are and I have to say right now I do have a fear of not getting better - or of getting something else. I think, hope, and pray I will never take good health and strength for granted again as long as I live. I loved the end of the sermon, though, and hope I'm expressing this in the way he meant. One of the best ways to fight fear is to distance yourself from fear and worry-mongers and seek fellowship with hope-mongers. I guess it's another way of saying accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative. So basic... so critical... so hard sometimes to remember and practice.

Well, Kevin came in again last night and he and Gary are out to pick up the RV Gary rented for my comfort to take to Creede tomorrow. No tent trailer this time and I have to say I'm really looking forward to it. We stay at a campground about 30 miles above the town of Creede, and about 2 miles below the Rio Grande reservoir, right on the Rio Grande river. It borders the Weminuche wilderness area, a fantastic place for hikers and so incredibly beautiful. Gary's family along with some aunts, uncles, cousins, stayed there every summer I think at least 40 years in a row. Then when we had a family we continued the tradition and have spent a week there so many times. Have reconciled myself to the fact that I have to just rest up there and it's ok but it took me awhile to get here! I usually get my fishing fix for the year there, we fish every day and I love it so much. Will hope to be really back to nomal next summer and able to do the hikes we do to get to the best fishing areas.

I happened the other day across a list I made years ago about what I liked and didn't like about my life and what I wanted to do about it. One thing listed was the absence of fun - I'm so happy to say that I really have done something about that. I know I mentioned this before, but a couple of years ago I started sharpshooting, which I love - started piano lessons a year ago, bought an ATV which we haven't used yet as much as I'd like to but have had much fun on it so far - and got a kayak this year, which sadly has not yet been used - but it will be! You know, all work and no play really does make for dullness so for those of you stuck there, think about some way you can add fun to your life. NOT something someone else wants you to do - something you want to do just for yourself. It's not selfish, it's energizing and does so much to help you keep going and giving - yes, kind of like the Energizer bunny.

There is no cell or internet coverage where we're going so I'll check back in when we return next week - someone is watching the house while we're away but can't give updates on the blog. Hope you all have a great, safe, happy, and FUN weekend!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Freedom


Well, first of all, I see that my link to the walking sites didn't come through so I'm sorry about that. If you're interested it was "trailsdenver.com". There are so many more, just do a Google search to see them. Was thinking today about freedom and the opposite, which are all the things that bind us and keep us from experiencing freedom. When I was working with someone many years ago she asked me one day "Val, what would it take for you to know freedom?" and it was such a startling question that I asked her where it came from. Shortly after that I came across a verse in Ps 119:32 "I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free." Ever since then I've wanted to run! Not physically, my body won't let me do that anymore, but in every other way to be and feel free - and I'll admit, I haven't made it yet.

From time to time I think about all the shackles we have, some that we put on ourselves, that keep us from running. It's heart-wrenching to me when I see on TV a prisoner shuffling in with shackles - to think that we would put them on ourselves is nearly unbelievable, yet I think nearly every one of us does it. One way to know what those are is to think about where we spend our time and our money. For many, it's long work hours, for some food or even the lack of it, same with exercise. For many it's pornography or alcohol or drugs - anything that consumes us and keeps us from being who we really want to be. And my point is that whether the shackle comes from a positive thing like work or a negative thing like drugs, it keeps us from running.

It's a good thing to think about and really be honest with yourself - do you know freedom? If not, do you want to? If you have interest, there are some verses you might be interested in looking up: Psalm 118:5; Psalm 119:45; Psalm 146:7; John 8: 32 and 34-36; Galatians 5:1.

Here's to true freedom for all of us!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

If you can't beat 'em


Join 'em! I decided to stop whining about being "only" able to walk and learn more about my walking options. For those of you outside Denver, my apologies, but for those in Denver, there's a wealth of info available online. I've included a link to one site but there are so many more that may be even better. I was born and raised in Denver and have spent most of my life here, but there are so many places I haven't seen. So we're going to do a little exploring and if we find something really great especially for walking, I'll let you know. I went in for a post-op visit today and as we were waiting, a young man came in with his parents in a brand-new quadriplegic wheelchair. Another of God's gentle reminders about blessings.

I was thinking today that my journey may not be quite as long as I thought it would be, especially since I don't need chemo. Besides which, I'm really tired of being the focus of this site and would imagine you are as well! I love writing, but am asking for your feedback, please, about whether I should continue the blog. I've thought about adding a "prayer, please" section which could be anonymous or not and if you have a story you'd like me to share, would be happy to do that. If the blog is a blessing to you and you'd like me to continue it would you just drop me a quick note? I know some of you have had trouble leaving comments on the blog site so you may just use my email address instead: vvwzoet@hotmail.com. Note it begins with two "v"s, which sometimes look like a "w". Thanks much, dear friends.
Val

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Time


Nearly all my working life I've focused each day on how much I can accomplish with the time I have. Have you heard of the Calvinist work ethic? It was so strong in our home that I would have no chance of getting away from its influence, even if I wanted to. But my personal focus regarding accomplishments has been more on "what" than on "who". In the little tests you can do that tell whether you're more task or people oriented, tasks win out every time. That's not to say I don't care about people, because I truly do, but I'm so task oriented that at the end of each day I would mentally assess how much was accomplished - and that also determined, to a great extent, my sense of worth.
These days I don't so much focus on what I can't do as try to remember all the things I shouldn't do, which seems like most everything. Even the reading I love and computer time are curtailed because of eyestrain. So if my value is based on my accomplishments, I'm virtually worthless right now - my innate sense of value got tipped upside down, to say the least.
It got me thinking again about time - the one thing we all have in equal measure. For nearly the first month I knew about the tumor, I was told it was a sarcoma - a deadly form of cancer. I didn't know what the treatment options were or whether I would choose to use them and didn't know how long I would live. Literally overnight I came to the deep realization that the only thing of real importance is people - relationships with the people I love and those with whom God has allowed me to share my life. All the "things" faded to insignificance, except for some thought about to whom I should leave them.

How much more of a spotlight could there be on my own erroneous way of thinking? Even though I don't impose my own standards on others in terms of value, it has to be in there somewhere - that our value as human beings is related to what we offer, what we accomplish, with the obvious conclusion about those who, as adults, can offer nothing. It's a way of thinking that leads down a road many of our leaders would love to see us use...to a world where healthcare and the right to live is determined by someone's interpretation of value or worth. I pray God will change my own heart and way of thinking about how I spend my time each day - that no matter what I can or can't "do" I'll remember to look into His eyes of love and see myself reflected there, cherished and loved not because of what I can offer, but simply because I am - and I am His.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Major Detour

You really never know what a new day will bring - as Kristen already reported, a week ago today I went to the ER at SkyRidge because my feet and legs were getting more swollen. Multiple clots in both legs, worse on the right was the diagnosis so they admitted me again, that was honestly the last thing I expected. While I was on the gurney in the ER I started having some bad back pain and thought it was from the ER bed. It continued that night after they moved me upstairs and just grew steadily worse, severe pain across my low back and down both legs, to the point I was counting the minutes until I could have more narcotics. It was all consuming, I couldn't think, could barely talk, couldn't sleep, couldn't escape it except for the edge that was taken off when I received IV narcotics. I couldn't even pray, except to groan Oh, God, help me. I can't even imagine, and don't want to know what it would have been like without all your prayers. The steroid injection finally relieved the pain and the good thing that happened is that the pain shifted from my head to my back and the bad head pain I had hasn't come back so now I'm almost completely off narcotics! You can't imagine the freedom I feel unless you've been there too.

I got to go home again Saturday, and how wonderful it is, again, to be here. I'm surrounded by tangible evidence of care and love from so many - beautiful cards, flowers, meals - all part of that mighty, gentle river I mentioned before. And I am working on thank you notes, I'm so sorry those are taking so long to get done but I wanted to thank each one of you again for your expressions of love and support, for your prayers. I am blessed. I wanted to leave you today with words from an old hymn, another that's been of such comfort these last few weeks especially.

Be Still My Soul
Katharina von Schlegel - 1700s
Be still my soul – the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change he faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul – thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul, thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul, the waves and winds still know,
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.
Be still my soul, the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still my soul, when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed – we shall meet at last.
With love,
Val

Thursday, July 8, 2010

My Mom just met with the Dr....her MRI from this morning shows two bulging discs in her lower back. They will treat with a steroid injection today and re-evaluate whether she can go home tomorrow.

Kristen

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Tuesday

Good morning,

My Mom is back in the hospital with blood clots in both legs - she is at SkyRidge this time. She had swelling yesterday in both legs and feet yesterday and wisely called her doctor immediately. She will be in the hospital for the next few days and we will keep you updated.

Kristen

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Target Zero



They told me I'd have roller-coaster days and I hit the bottom of a steep hill last night - will hope the hills become shallower as time passes. I think if my doctors could have me focus on one word these next three months it would be "safety" - a word often paired with "health". It's interesting to see how quickly you become much more aware of your environment and potential risks when there is an intentional focus. Coincidentally, CH2M HILL began a safety initiative a few years ago called "Target Zero" - the goal of which was to reduce the number of recordable safety incidents and create a safer workplace and mindset. It took some time to better educate us and get us completely on board, but if I were to guess a common denominator of focus among our employees on a global basis today, it would be practicing - living out every day - the highest safety standards. Most meetings in our offices around the world begin with a safety message and we're all still learning, all the time.
I've pasted below some summer safety tips, but on this 4th of July I especially hope all the adults out there will practice super safety when it comes to fireworks. Have a SAFE and HAPPY holiday!



Keep your family safe this summer by following these tips from the American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP). Please feel free to use them in any print or broadcast story with appropriate attribution of source.

FUN IN THE SUN Source:
http://www.aap.org/advocacy/archives/tanning.htmBabies under 6 months:
The two main recommendations from the AAP to prevent sunburn are to avoid sun exposure, and dress infants in lightweight long pants, long-sleeved shirts, and brimmed hats that shade the neck to prevent sunburn. However when adequate clothing and shade are not available, parents can apply a minimal amount of suncreen with at least 15 SPF (sun protection factor) to small areas, such as the infant's face and the back of the hands. If an infant gets sunburn, apply cold compresses to the affected area.
For All Other Children:
The first, and best, line of defense against the sun is covering up. Wear a hat with a three-inch brim or a bill facing forward, sunglasses (look for sunglasses that block 99-100% of ultraviolet rays), and cotton clothing with a tight weave.
Stay in the shade whenever possible, and limit sun exposure during the peak intensity hours - between 10 a.m. and 4 p.m.
On both sunny and cloudy days use a sunscreen with an SPF of 15 or greater that protects against UVB and UVA rays.
Be sure to apply enough sunscreen - about one ounce per sitting for a young adult.
Reapply sunscreen every two hours, or after swimming or sweating.
Use extra caution near water and sand (and even snow!) as they reflect UV rays and may result in sunburn more quickly.
HEAT STRESS IN EXERCISING CHILDRENSource
: http://www.aap.org/policy/re9845.html
The intensity of activities that last 15 minutes or more should be reduced whenever high heat and humidity reach critical levels.
At the beginning of a strenuous exercise program or after traveling to a warmer climate, the intensity and duration of exercise should be limited initially and then gradually increased during a period of 10 to 14 days to accomplish acclimatization to the heat.
Before prolonged physical activity, the child should be well-hydrated. During the activity, periodic drinking should be enforced, for example, each 20 minutes, 5 oz of cold tap water or a flavored sports drink for a child weighing 90 lbs, and 9 oz for an adolescent weighing 130 lbs, even if the child does not feel thirsty.
Clothing should be light-colored and lightweight and limited to one layer of absorbent material to facilitate evaporation of sweat. Sweat-saturated shirts should be replaced by dry clothing.
Practices and games played in the heat should be shortened and more frequent water/hydration breaks should be instituted.
POOL SAFETYSource
: http://www.aap.org/family/tipppool.htm
Install a fence at least four-feet high around all four sides of the pool. The fence should not have openings or protrusions that a young child could use to get over, under, or through.
Make sure pool gates open out from the pool, and self-close and self-latch at a height children can't reach.
If the house serves as the fourth side of a fence surrounding a pool, install an alarm on the exit door to the yard and the pool.
Never leave children alone in or near the pool or spa, even for a moment.
Keep rescue equipment (a shepherd's hook - a long pole with a hook on the end - and life preserver) and a portable telephone near the pool. Choose a shepherd’s hook and other rescue equipment made of fiberglass or other materials that do not conduct electricity.
Avoid inflatable swimming aids such as "floaties." They are not a substitute for approved life vests and can give children a false sense of security.
Children age 4 and older should be taught to swim. Parents may choose to start swimming lessons before age 4 if their children are developmentally ready, but swim programs should never be seen as “drown proofing” a child of any age.
Whenever infants or toddlers are in or around water, an adult should be within arm's length, providing "touch supervision."
Avoid Entrapment: Suction from pool and spa drains can trap an adult underwater. Do not use a pool or spa if there are broken or missing drain covers. Ask your pool operator if your pool or spa’s drains are compliant with the Pool and Spa Safety Act.
Large inflatable above-ground pools have become increasingly popular for backyard use. Children may fall in if they lean against the soft side of an inflatable pool. Although such pools are often exempt from local pool fencing requirements, it is essential that they be surrounded by an appropriate fence just as a permanent pool would be so that children cannot gain unsupervised access.
BUG SAFETY
Don't use scented soaps, perfumes or hair sprays on your child.
Avoid areas where insects nest or congregate, such as stagnant pools of water, uncovered foods and gardens where flowers are in bloom.
Avoid dressing your child in clothing with bright colors or flowery prints.
To remove a visible stinger from skin, gently back it out by scraping it off horizontally with a credit card or your fingernail.
Combination sunscreen/insect repellent products should be avoided because sunscreen needs to be reapplied every two hours, but the insect repellent should not be reapplied.
Use insect repellents containing DEET when need to prevent insect related diseases such as ticks which can transmit Lyme Disease, and mosquitoes which can transmit West Nile Virus and other viruses.
The current CDC and AAP recommendation for children over 2 months of age is to use 10- 30 percent DEET. DEET should not be used on children under 2 months of age.
The effectiveness is similar for 10-30% DEET but the duration of effect varies. Ten percent DEET provides protection for about 2 hours – 30% for about 5 hours – choose the lowest concentration that will provide required length of coverage.
The concentration of DEET varies significantly from product to product, so read the label of any product you purchase. Children should wash off repellents when back indoors.
As an alternative to DEET, Picaridin has become available in the U.S. in concentrations of 5-10%.
For more information on DEET
: http://www.aapnews.org/cgi/content/full/e200399v1 PLAYGROUND SAFETY Source: http://www.aap.org/advocacy/archives/maytra.htm Source: http://www.aap.org/family/playgrd.htmThe playground should have safety-tested mats or loose-fill materials (shredded rubber, sand, wood chips, or bark) maintained to a depth of at least 9 inches. The protective surface should be installed at least 6 feet (more for swings and slides) in all directions from the equipment.
Equipment should be carefully maintained. Open “s” hooks or protruding bolt ends can be hazardous.
Swing seats should be made of soft materials such as rubber, plastic or canvas.
Make sure children cannot reach any moving parts that might pinch or trap any body part.
Never attach—or allow children to attach—ropes, jump ropes, leashes, or similar items to play equipment; children can strangle on these.
Make sure metal slides are cool to prevent children's legs from getting burned.
Do not allow children to play barefoot on the playground.
Parents should never purchase a home trampoline or allow children to use home trampolines.
Parents should supervise children on play equipment to make sure they are safe.
BICYCLE SAFETYSource:
http://www.aap.org/family/bicycle.htmSource: http://www.aap.org/family/tbikmyth.htm
Do not push your child to ride a 2-wheeled bike until he or she is ready, at about age 5 or 6. Consider the child's coordination and desire to learn to ride. Stick with coaster (foot) brakes until your child is older and more experienced for hand brakes.
Take your child with you when you shop for the bike, so that he or she can try it out. The value of a properly fitting bike far outweighs the value of surprising your child with a new one. For more information on finding the proper fit, go to
http://www.aap.org/family/bicycle.htm#choosing
Buy a bike that is the right size, not one your child has to "grow into." Oversized bikes are especially dangerous.
Your child needs to wear a helmet on every bike ride, no matter how short or how close to home. Many accidents happen in driveways, on sidewalks, and on bike paths, not just on streets. Children learn best by observing you. Set the example: Whenever you ride, put on your helmet.
When purchasing a helmet, look for a label or sticker that says the helmet meets the CPSC safety standard.
A helmet protects your child from serious injury, and should always be worn. And remember, wearing a helmet at all times helps children develop the helmet habit.
A helmet should be worn so that it is level on the head, not tipped forwards or backwards. The strap should be securely fastened, and you should not be able to move the helmet in any direction. If needed, the helmet’s sizing pads can help improve the fit.
SKATEBOARD, SCOOTER, IN-LINE SKATING AND HEELYS SAFETY Source:
http://www.aap.org/advocacy/archives/marskate.htmChildren should never ride skateboards or scooters in or near traffic.
All skateboarders and scooter-riders should wear a helmet and other protective gear; wrist guards are particularly important.
Communities should continue to develop skateboard parks, which are more likely to be monitored for safety than ramps and jumps constructed by children at home.
While in-line skating or wearing Heelys, be sure to wear appropriate protective equipment and only skate on designated paths or rinks and not on the street.
LAWN MOWER SAFETYSource:
http://www.aap.org/family/tipplawn.htm
Try to use a mower with a control that stops the mower from moving forward if the handle is let go.
Children younger than 16 years should not be allowed to use ride-on mowers. Children younger than 12 years should not use walk-behind mowers.
Make sure that sturdy shoes (not sandals or sneakers) are worn while mowing.
Prevent injuries from flying objects, such as stones or toys, by picking up objects from the lawn before mowing begins. Have anyone who uses a mower wear hearing and eye protection.
Do not pull the mower backward or mow in reverse unless absolutely necessary, and carefully look for children behind you when you mow in reverse.
Always turn off the mower and wait for the blades to stop completely before removing the grass catcher, unclogging the discharge chute, or crossing gravel paths, roads, or other areas.
Do not allow children to ride as passengers on ride-on mowers.
Copyright © 2010 American Academy of Pediatrics. Please feel free to use tips in any print or broadcast story with appropriate attribution of source.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Wired

Or maybe I should say unwired first, since I got my staples and sutures out yesterday! Another little milestone, and each one is progress. Also learned that my strange recent morning "out of body-mind experiences" are likely due to my brain settling into its new space so that was reassuring. But it got me thinking about the human brain and how complex it is, how every person on the planet is wired just a little differently. I don't have a long entry today but have pasted info below with some fun facts about the brain. I know I've mentioned this before, but I think in addition to each of us being able to gain flexibility, strength, and better health no matter what our age, we can each exercise our brain as well. Is there something you've always wanted to try or learn? What's holding you back? I bet your brain would love you for learning something new. Hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekend! Can't believe it's here already, though, because once the 4th hits it seems like Labor Day is the next weekend, then Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas and we start all over again. Have fun and be safe!


100 Fascinating Facts You Never Knew About the Human Brain
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The human brain has amazed and baffled people throughout the ages. Some scientists and doctors have devoted their entire lives to learning how the brain works. It is no wonder that people enjoy learning facts about this incredible organ in the human body. Below, you will find 100 facts about the brain including how it works, how it develops, what it controls, how it affects sleep, dreams, and memory, and more, which may be helpful. When you finish reading about these fun facts, take this short brainpower quiz and see how much you learned about the human brain.
Physical Attributes
These facts will teach you interesting bits of information about the physical make-up of the human brain.
1. Weight. The weight of the human brain is about 3 lbs.
2. Cerebrum. The cerebrum is the largest part of the brain and makes up 85% of the brain’s weight.
3. Skin. Your skin weighs twice as much as your brain.
4. Gray matter. The brain’s gray matter is made up of neurons, which gather and transmit signals.
5. White matter. The white matter is made up of dendrites and axons, which create the network by which neurons send their signals.
6. Gray and white. Your brain is 60% white matter and 40% gray matter.
7. Water. The brain is made up of about 75% water.
8. Neurons. Your brain consists of about 100 billion neurons.
9. Synapses. There are anywhere from 1,000 to 10,000 synapses for each neuron.
10. No pain. There are no pain receptors in the brain, so the brain can feel no pain.
11. Largest brain. While an elephant’s brain is physically larger than a human brain, the human brain is 2% of total body weight (compared to 0.15% of an elephant’s brain), meaning humans have the largest brain to body size.
12. Blood vessels. There are 100,000 miles of blood vessels in the brain.
13. Fat. The human brain is the fattest organ in the body and may consists of at least 60% fat.
The Developing Brain
Starting from within the womb, fetal brain development begins the amazing journey that leads to a well-developed brain at birth that continues to grow for 18 more years.
14. Neurons. Neurons develop at the rate of 250,000 neurons per minute during early pregnancy.
15. Size at birth. At birth, your brain was almost the same size as an adult brain and contained most of the brain cells for your whole life.
16. Newborn’s growth. A newborn baby’s brain grows about three times its size in the first year.
17. Stopped growing. Your brain stopped growing at age 18.
18. Cerebral cortex. The cerebral cortex grows thicker as you learn to use it.
19. Stimulation. A stimulating environment for a child can make the difference between a 25% greater ability to learn or 25% less in an environment with little stimulation.
20. New neurons. Humans continue to make new neurons throughout life in response to mental activity.
21. Read aloud. Reading aloud and talking often to a young child promotes brain development.
22. Emotions. The capacity for such emotions as joy, happiness, fear, and shyness are already developed at birth. The specific type of nurturing a child receives shapes how these emotions are developed.
23. First sense. The first sense to develop while in utero is the sense of touch. The lips and cheeks can experience touch at about 8 weeks and the rest of the body around 12 weeks.
24. Bilingual brains. Children who learn two languages before the age of five alters the brain structure and adults have a much denser gray matter.
25. Child abuse and the brain. Studies have shown that child abuse can inhibit development of the brain and can permanently affect brain development.
Brain Function
From the invisible workings of the brain to more visible responses such as yawns or intelligence, find out how the brain functions with these facts.
26. Oxygen. Your brain uses 20% of the total oxygen in your body.
27. Blood. As with oxygen, your brain uses 20% of the blood circulating in your body.
28. Unconsciousness. If your brain loses blood for 8 to 10 seconds, you will lose consciousness.
29. Speed. Information can be processed as slowly as 0.5 meters/sec or as fast as 120 meters/sec (about 268 miles/hr).
30. Wattage. While awake, your brain generates between 10 and 23 watts of power–or enough energy to power a light bulb.
31. Yawns. It is thought that a yawn works to send more oxygen to the brain, therefore working to cool it down and wake it up.
32. Neocortex. The neocortex makes up about 76% of the human brain and is responsible for language and consciousness. The human neocortex is much larger than in animals.
33. 10%. The old adage of humans only using 10% of their brain is not true. Every part of the brain has a known function.
34. Brain death. The brain can live for 4 to 6 minutes without oxygen, and then it begins to die. No oxygen for 5 to 10 minutes will result in permanent brain damage.
35. Highest temperature. The next time you get a fever, keep in mind that the highest human body temperature ever recorded was 115.7 degrees–and the man survived.
36. Stress. Excessive stress has shown to "alter brain cells, brain structure and brain function."
37. Love hormones and autism. Oxytocin, one of the hormones responsible for triggering feelings of love in the brain, has shown some benefits to helping control repetitive behaviors in those with autism.
38. Food and intelligence. A study of one million students in New York showed that students who ate lunches that did not include artificial flavors, preservatives, and dyes did 14% better on IQ tests than students who ate lunches with these additives.
39. Seafood. In the March 2003 edition of Discover magazine, a report describes how people in a 7-year study who ate seafood at least one time every week had a 30% lower occurrence of dementia.
Psychology of the Brain
From tickling to tasting to decision-making, find out how the brain affects what you experience.
40. Tickles. You can’t tickle yourself because your brain distinguished between unexpected external touch and your own touch.
41. Imaginary playmates. A study from Australia showed that children with imaginary playmates between the ages of 3 and 9 tended to be first-born children.
42. Reading faces. Without any words, you may be able to determine if someone is in a good mood, is feeling sad, or is angry just by reading the face. A small area in the brain called the amygdala is responsible for your ability to read someone else’s face for clues to how they are feeling.
43. Ringing in the ears. For years, medical professionals believed that tinnitus was due to a function within the mechanics of the ear, but newer evidence shows that it is actually a function of the brain.
44. Pain and gender. Scientists have discovered that men and women’s brains react differently to pain, which explains why they may perceive or discuss pain differently.
45. Supertasters. There is a class of people known as supertasters who not only have more taste buds on the tongue, but whose brain is more sensitive to the tastes of foods and drinks. In fact, they can detect some flavors that others cannot.
46. Cold. Some people are much more sensitive to cold and actually feel pain associated with cold. Research as shown that the reason is due to certain channels that send cold information to the brain.
47. Decision-making. Women tend to take longer to make a decision, but are more likely to stick with the decision, compared to men, who are more likely to change their mind after making a decision.
48. Exercise. Some studies indicate that while some people are naturally more active, others are naturally more inactive, which may explain why getting out and exercising is more difficult for some.
49. Boredom. Boredom is brought on by a lack of change of stimulation, is largely a function of perception, and is connected to the innate curiosity found in humans.
50. Physical illness. The connection between body and mind is a strong one. One estimate is that between 50-70% of visits to the doctor for physical ailments are attributed to psychological factors.
51. Sadness and shopping. Researchers have discovered that those experiencing the blues are more willing to spend more money in an attempt to alleviate their sadness.
Memory
Learn how scent, jet lag, and estrogen affect memory, plus plenty of other information, with these facts.
52. Jet lag. Frequent jet lag can impair your memory, probably due to the stress hormones released.
53. New connections. Every time you recall a memory or have a new thought, you are creating a new connection in your brain.
54. Create associations. Memory is formed by associations, so if you want help remembering things, create associations for yourself.
55. Scent and memory. Memories triggered by scent have a stronger emotional connection, therefore appear more intense than other memory triggers.
56. Anomia. Anomia is the technical word for tip-of-the-tongue syndrome when you can almost remember a word, but it just won’t quite come to you.
57. Sleep. While you sleep at night may be the best time for your brain to consolidate all your memories from the day.
58. No sleep. It goes to follow…lack of sleep may actuallyhurt your ability to create new memories.
59. World Champion. A world champion memorizer, Ben Pridmore memorized 96 historical events in 5 minutes and memorized a single, shuffled deck of cards in 26.28 seconds.
60. Estrogen and memory. Estrogen (found in both men and women) has been shown to promote better memory functions.
61. Insulin. Insulin works to regulate blood-sugar in the body, but recently, scientists have discovered that its presence in the brain also helps promote memory.
Dreams and Sleep
The amazing world of dreams and what happens during sleep is a mystery rooted in the brain. Learn interesting facts about dreams and sleep in this list.
62. Everyone dreams. Just because you don’t remember your dreams doesn’t mean you don’t dream. Everyone dreams!
63. Nightly average. Most people dream about 1-2 hours a night and have an average of 4-7 dreams each night.
64. Brain waves. Studies show that brain waves are more active while dreaming than when you are awake.
65. Lost dreams. Five minutes after a dream, half of the dream is forgotten. Ten minutes after a dream, over 90% is forgotten. Write down your dreams immediately if you want to remember them.
66. Blind people dream. Dreams are more than just visual images, and blind people do dream. Whether or not they dream in pictures depends on if they were born blind or lost their vision later.
67. Color or B&W. Some people (about 12%) dream only in black and white while others dream in color.
68. Virtually paralyzed. While you sleep, your body produces a hormone that may prevent you from acting out your dreams, leaving you virtually paralyzed.
69. Snoring. If you are snoring, you are not dreaming.
70. During a dream. If you are awakened during a dream, you are much more likely to remember the dream than if you slept until a full night’s sleep.
71. Symbolism. As those who invest in dream dictionaries can attest, dreams almost never represent what they actually are. The unconscious mind strives to make connections with concepts you will understand, so dreams are largely symbolic representations.
72. Adenosine. Caffeine works to block naturally occurring adenosine in the body, creating alertness. Scientists have recently discovered this connection and learned that doing the opposite–boosting adenosine–can actually help promote more natural sleep patterns and help eliminate insomnia.
73. Dream showings. Japanese researchers have successfully developed a technology that can put thoughts on a screen and may soon be able to screen people’s dreams.
Fun and Interesting Facts
From juggling to a Brain Bank to cannibalism, read about these fun and interesting brain facts.
74. Airplanes and headaches. A study showed a correlation between flying and headaches and states that around 6% of people who fly get headaches brought on by the flight itself.
75. Juggling. Juggling has shown to change the brain in as little as seven days. The study indicates that learning new things helps the brain to change very quickly.
76. Disney and sleep. A study published in the journal Sleep Medicine describes how Disney creators used real sleep disorders in many of their animated pets.
77. Blinking. Each time we blink, our brain kicks in and keeps things illuminated so the whole world doesn’t go dark each time we blink (about 20,000 times a day).
78. Laughing. Laughing at a joke is no simple task as it requires activity in five different areas of the brain.
79. Yawns are contagious. Ever notice that you yawned after someone around you did? Scientists believe this may be a response to an ancient social behavior for communication that humans still have.
80. Brain Bank. Harvard maintains a Brain Bank where over 7,000 human brains are store for research purposes.
81. Outer space. The lack of gravity in outer space affects the brain in several ways. Scientists are studying how and why, but you may want to hold off on your next trip to the moon.
82. Music. Music lessons have shown to considerably boost brain organization and ability in both children and adults.
83. Thoughts. The average number of thoughts that humans are believed to experience each day is 70,000.
84. Ambidexterity. Those who are left-handed or ambidextrous have a corpus collosum (the part of the brain that bridges the two halves) that is about 11% larger than those who are right-handed.
85. Stressful job. According to a study by Bristol-Myers Squibb, accountants have the highest incidence of on-the-job headaches, followed by librarians, then bus and truck drivers.
86. Aristotle. Aristotle mistakenly thought that the functions of the brain actually took place in the heart.
87. Cannibalism. Some research shows that humans carry genes that help protect the brain from prion diseases, or diseases contracted through eating human flesh, leading medical experts to believe that ancient humans may have eaten other humans.
88. Shakespeare. The word "brain" appears 66 times in the plays of William Shakespeare.
Famous Brains
People have always been fascinated with the brains of famous people. Find out what experts know about these famous brains.
89. Albert Einstein. Einstein’s brain was similar in size to other humans except in the region that is responsible for math and spatial perception. In that region, his brain was 35% wider than average.
90. London taxi drivers. Famous for knowing all the London streets by heart, these drivers have a larger than normal hippocampus, especially the drivers who have been on the job longest. The study suggests that as people memorize more and more information, this part of their brain continues to grow.
91. VI Lenin. After his death, Lenin’s brain was studied and found to have an abnormally large and numerous neurons in a particular region that may explain his "strikingly acute and penetrating mental processes" for which he was famous.
92. Oldest brain. A brain thought to be 2000 years old was unearthed just recently at the University of York in northern England.
93. Babe Ruth. The Babe was tested by two Columbia psychology students and was determined to be working at 90% efficiency compared to the 60% efficiency measured for most people.
94. Daniel Tammet. Daniel Tammet is an autistic savant who, since the age of three when he suffered an epileptic seizure, has been able to perform astounding mathematical computations, knows seven languages, and is developing a language of his own.
95. Keith Jarrett. This jazz musician was discovered at age 3 to have perfect pitch, which scientists can pinpoint in the right frontal lobe.
Moments in History
The study of the brain has an interesting history. Check out this abbreviated time line to learn interesting facts about the history of brain research and development.
96. 2000 B.C.. Archeologists found evidence that primitive brain surgery was performed by drilling a hole in the skull.
97. 1811. Scottish surgeon Charles Bell described how each of the senses had a corresponding spot in the brain.
98. 1899. Aspirin was marketed as a pain reliever, but was not available without a prescription until 1915.
99. 1921. Hermann Rorschach invented the now-famous ink blot test for use with his patients.
100. 1959. The first rhesus monkey was sent into space to study human behavior.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Rainbow Book-Ends


Last week when they moved me from ICU to the neuro floor I received a big, beautiful room on the 7th floor overlooking the mountains - it seemed like the penthouse suite and I just loved looking out, day and night. Followed the full moon in all its beauty across the sky one night and never got tired of seeing the mountains. On Saturday morning, 6/25 I'd had a bad night with pain and was up early, sitting in the chair, facing the mountains and I looked up and there was a brilliant rainbow over the western sky as the sun came up. I looked at the clock and it was 6:25 am and I thought, ok, I should remember that. There were showers off and on throughout the day and that evening, at 7:25 pm we looked back toward the eastern sky and there was a brilliant double rainbow as the sun began to set. I got to thinking about my grandchildren and how I had made a card for each of them to help tell them about the bad thing I had behind my eye. They each had a rainbow, and I told them the rainbow is a symbol of God's promises to us. Then I got to thinking about God's promises - I'm not sure how many there are but sometimes I think of them this way; when we give our heart to the Lord and become his child, we become his heir, or receiver of all his gifts and promises. I think of each one of those as a gift-wrapped package with my name on it. Until I take it, unwrap it, accept and make it my own it just sits there looking beautiful but doesn't do me much good at all.


My Mom and sister gave me some book-end promises around my surgery that I wanted to share with you. The first is from Joshua 1:9 "Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." And the second, from the Living Bible, Psalm 94:19 "Lord, when doubts fill my mind and my heart is in turmoil, quiet me and give me renewed hope and cheer." That's where the peace I had going into surgery came from. I challenge you today to find a promise and make it your own.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Wellness

I received such lovely flowers today from Clinix, my healthcare provider, and mention that only because so many people are unaware of wellness options. Several years ago I had a really nasty bout of shingles that lasted a long time and then acted like it wanted to come back full force. Those of you who've had it will understand I just couldn't cope with that idea and had heard of a wellness focus to healthcare so started researching that. As it turned out, one of the best wellness clinics in the state happens to be just a few blocks from our office so I got started there and feel these last few years have really been an intentional move in a stronger and healthier direction.

Clinix is a group of providers who got together to provide an umbrella of care with both Western and Eastern health philosophy and focus. There are MDs, DOs, chiropractors, naturopaths, exercise, physical, and massage therapists under one roof who coordinate care with mutual respect for one another's expertise. Within a year of starting my care there I was able to reduce my prescription medications by well over half and each year since has brought additional improvement. They offer "Clinics at Clinix" where one or more healthcare provider hosts a group office visit for information, education, and treatment options and that opened up a whole new world for me about ways to become better educated and better invested in my own care. Although I haven't been able to completely cut this out of my own life, if I could give only one piece of healthcare advice it would be this - eat less sugar! It's deadly in many ways.

In addition, Clinix was chosen as one of about 20 providers along the Front Range to participate in a healthcare pilot program this year called "Patient Centered Medical Home". At least to my understanding, one of the key initiatives in this is to get both medical providers and patients much more interested in, incentivized by, and invested in a wellness-focused approach that moves from simply treating symptoms to making real progress in eliminating the cause of symptoms. In some ways I feel I've only taken baby steps in the wellness journey, there's so much more to learn and so many more disciplines to apply but I'm absolutely convinced that every one of us, no matter our age, can make choices that will result in better strength and health. I'll include their web page in case any of you are interested in learning more about a wellness approach to life. http://www.clinixusa.com/

Well, had a pretty rough morning, I have absolutely no idea what it's like to be stoned (and I mean none) but I THINK that's what it would feel like - like voices were coming from the bottom of a very deep well and I was kind of floating over everthing. That has fortunately gotten better, I sure wasn't in the mood for a trip back to the hospital, but I imagine that's what it will be like for awhile and hopefully more steps forward than back.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

There's no place like home!

Well, yesterday I got to put my sparkly red shoes on (even though they looked suspiciously more like black & white flip flops), click my heels together and go home! How good it is to be among the familiar, loved things again. I measured my progress by how many tubes and electronic leads I got unhooked from and was so delighted to see the last one come out of my arm! I do look like a pincushion and imagine that if someone saw my forearms they would suspect the cause to be something much different than brain surgery. The discouraging part of the morning, though, came from learning the scope of my restrictions. Not only can I not drive for three months but there is to be no: swimming - kayaking - shooting - bicycling or sports of any sort - pushing, pulling or lifting over 10 lbs - ATV - hot tubs - even warm bubble baths. The only thing I can do outside is a gentle walk with someone at my side - how humiliating. I could feel the sharp little teeth and claws of self-pity tugging relentlessly at my little blanket of contentment and honestly don't know right now how I'm going to do this. Because three months brings us to the end of September, definitely the end of summer. I feel like the canvas of my life has nearly been washed clean, like all the colors of my interests are just gone, along with the summer months I love so much and it will be interesting to see how it gets repainted.

I know, I know, it could be worse, most definitely, and especially if I were facing chemo and a grim prognosis now but for some reason can't look so much at the positives today. I did come home to so many expressions of love and support that I felt carried along on that river again. Bob and Nancy, I will be sending thank you notes too but wanted you to know that the flowers you sent were so lovely. I couldn't have them in my room in intensive care so it was all the more delightful when I went upstairs and could see them all the time. Tasha, yours were and are still beautiful as well. Bridgette, I've never seen flowers last as long as those you sent and Lee and friends, of course the planter is still gorgeous. So I'm surrounded once again with tangible expressions of love and support and it's an amazing experience. Just going into fresh air and sunlight after 10 days was wonderful and today the pain is so much better that's amazing too. So...sending each of you my love and thanks once again and hoping you can look around and find at least one thing to delight in and be thankful for today.
Val

Monday, June 28, 2010

Twilight Zone

Twilight Zone - good words to describe my time in Intensive Care, which I wasn't expecting to last more than a day. And especially good to describe the particular place I had on an inside wall with very little access to natural light. A zone of 24/7 vigilance with no accomodation whatever to natural cycles of night and day, but rather a constant barrage of light and urgent sound, as very sick or injured people are encouraged and assisted to live another day. It's the sound, perhaps, that is the most unique - a muted cacophany of electronic blips and bleeps, alarms of every sort, bells and chimes that indicate all is well - or not, as is often the case. Then, of course, you have the people willing to work in these particular places where life itself is never taken for granted. I could have sworn, almost every day in the hospital and ICU, the I had the very best nurses available and at times they did seem almost like angels with their gentle ministrations.

I mentioned on the last blog I wrote of having peeked ahead a day or two in the devotional I use so I knew the lesson on pain was coming up -and because of the pain it took quite a few days to get to it! There is a part of that particular entry so eloquent that I wanted to pass it along verbatim (Chuck Swindoll): "Pain humbles the proud. It softens the stubborn. It melts the hard. Silently and relentlessly, it wins battles deep within the lonely soul. The heart alone knows its own sorrow, and not another person can fully share in it. Pain operates alone; it needs no assistance. It communicates its own message, whether to statesman or servant, preacher or prodigal, mother or child. By staying, it refuses to be ignored. By hurting, it reduces its victim to profound depths of anquish. And it is at that anguishing point that the sufferer either submits and learns, developing maturity and character; or resists, and becomes embittered, swamped by self-pity, smothered by self will.
I have tried and cannot find, either in scripture or history, a strong will individual whom God used greatly until He allowed him to be hurt deeply."

There are, of course, many faces of pain and I sometimes think that physical pain is the least of them. Each of them, though, has the capacity to draw from us a choice - submit and learn, allow yourself to be changed for the better - or resist and refuse to allow good changes into your life. What if we learned to see pain not as an enemy, but a friend? Simply put, pain of any sort alerts us to the fact that something, somewhere, needs fixing. Do we have the courage to slow down or even stop to look it fully in the face? To become aware of changes that need to be made? To have the courage to make good choices to change? And what about the pain we see in the lives of others? On one of my last days in intensive care a young man occupied the room next to mine, but he was strapped onto a body board/brace with a broken neck and paralysis. That may have been the day of the greatest physical pain I had - yet how blessed I was to feel it. And what about those each of us know who have become embittered and "swamped by self pity"? Might you be willing sometime to step into their pain with them, share it in whatever way you're able to, and perhaps share an encouraging word?

In some ways the entire last 10 days seem like a twilight zone - I wonder if my brain will begin to sort things out after I go home. In any case, I can give an unqualified thumbs-up for the care I received at Swedish, it was truly outstanding. If you're lucky enough to have a medical provider of some sort in your circle of friends and family, give them a big hug when you can - they've chosen a good way to spend their life. I will, though, be so ready to go to bed at night and not be woken up every two hours!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Visitors

My Mom has been moved to the 7th floor, with the stipulation that she have someone with her the majority of the time. The 7th floor will give her sunlight, some privacy, and the opportunity to rest. If you have been wanting to see her, this would be a great time. She may not have much energy to visit, but would love to just be in your company.

If you have a half hour to hour to sit with her please either email me at sunshine80219@hotmail.com or call me at 303-960-7671 and I will give you further details.

She looks extraordinary to me, but is still in a massive amount of pain. Prayers for continued healing are requested.

Kristen

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

My Mom will be in the ICU for the next few days. She has a pressure dressing around her head to keep the swelling down and they are doing what they can to manage her pain. She is quite bruised and battered right now and we will update as we know more. Please continue to pray.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Good morning,

Surgery lasted about 3.5 hours last night, and was successful. Her skull was cut down more to allow the eye socket to settle back in to place and titanium mesh was used to rebuild parts of the skull. The doctor also used mesh to build a synthetic membrane to keep spinal fluid from leaking in to they eye area. She was in recovery until about 3am, then moved to ICU where she will remain today.

Kristen

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Sunday

My Mom has had a very difficult and challenging day. She will be having surgery again tomorrow evening and requests prayers. Will update as we know more.

Kristen
Day 2 - My Mom is moving from ICU to the neuro unit today. She was able to eat and sit up last night. Pain management has been an issue and continued prayers are needed. She had a MRI this morning and we are waiting on the results. She was able to sleep some last night. Will update as we know more.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Update

Good Morning,

My Mom went in to surgery a little before 6:30pm and came out well after midnight. The surgeon successfully removed the tumor but had to take a small part of her skull in the process. She will be in ICU through the day today and depending on how the day goes, may be moved to her room tonight.

She hoped for a miracle to the very last moment, but maybe the miracle is that the tumor was found early on. The miracle may have occurred through a life she touched in this process. The miracle may still be to come.

Her anesthesiologist asked her what beach she wanted to visit, and what drink she would have while there. Without hesitation she answered "Cozumel" and that she would be snorkeling. I hope that not only did she get to visit her favorite beach during surgery, but that she gets a well-deserved vacation in actuality later this year!

My Mom has requested that anyone who wants to visit wait until she is home, so she can enjoy and focus on her visit with you during the six weeks of healing she will have.

We have also had many requests from people wanting to help in some way. My answer is simply to please help as you feel called. If you are blessed with gardening/landscaping skills, she has plenty of projects. If you are a great cook please drop a meal by. If you find a beautiful card, she has taken great joy in reading well wishes. Later down the road she will need help getting to work and back as she cannot drive for three months. Most importantly, please continue to pray for healing and that the tumor does not reoccur.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Day 25-12

I was so hoping to begin this morning by saying "I did it!" - but we didn't get to go to the range after all, just too much to do and had to focus on the priorities so will save that for another day. The subject of CS' message today was "The Shadow of the Giant". I associated immediately with the "valley of the shadow of death" since that Psalm (23) has been going through my mind almost every day for the last month. That particular shadow wasn't the subject he was referring to but we all have our shadows and that's mine for today. (I peeked ahead a couple of topics and the one two days away is on "Pain" - do you see what I mean about God giving me exactly what I need when I need it? Happy face here)

Well, I have reached the first destination on the journey - S day. Saw the eye doctor four weeks ago today and it feels like I've been on a bullet train through the maze of the medical system with long and frequent stops at "WAIT HERE" stations along the way. I'll be using an alternate form of transportation going forward that sounds very much like "pedestrian" (now "equestrian" - that I could be very happy with and it does rhyme - and it even qualifies as a life-long dream! Kevin offered to get me a burro but I think I'll pass on that one.)

Have to admit I'm scared about so many things - have to also trust that the thousands of prayers going up on my behalf are making a difference, that I'm in good hands, that my guardian angels (yes, I'm convinced I really do have them) are always vigilant, no matter whose hands I'm in.

So, dear friends and family, just in case I'm not able to write soon - and just for the record - and just for the sake of those who don't know me well, I need to tell you about my very best friend. To those of you who are not believers in Christ, please, please know there is no intention whatever to offend you but I just can't help sharing what he has done for me. Ps 103: 4 says "who redeems your life from the pit". I learned that as a child as "Who redeemeth your life from destruction". That's what Jesus did for me 35 years ago. I'm not talking about being "saved" because I think I always have been. I was born into a Christian home, baptized as an infant, part of a church and Christian school that helped teach and raise me, and made my own sincere profession of my faith when I was 14. I honestly feel like God claimed me at the moment of conception and I've always been a little sad that I didn't have a "conversion" experience like some do. What I'm talking about, though, is redemption - and I think a lot of believers miss that part.

I remember long ago looking up the word "redeem": "to regain possession by paying a specified sum...to rescue or ransom." I believe that takes brokenness, which not many of us would sign up for. About 35 years ago I had a significant stop in the journey of my life because it was a place at which I needed to linger long enough to feel the depths of pain my own words and actions had caused, and it shattered me. But Jesus stepped in among the shards, bought them back, and fashioned them together in a much better way. (Claire Cloninger has a beautiful book about the process, When God Shines Through.) Although that initial experience was a watershed event for me, and I've never had to go back to that beginning, the living and learning process since then has been a lifelong one, with delays, detours, and sometimes a few steps back. There have been times in these 35 years that I haven't looked or acted or felt "redeemed" at all and even times when I've felt completely forsaken by God, but I'll save those for another day. This is about God saying, no matter what I've done to hurt him, myself, or others, "begin again with me, in love". That's something Gary and I have learned to apply to our marriage as well, to begin again in love, no matter how many tries we have to make.

That life changing experience did leave me with this strange and often embarrassing "weeping syndrome" (my term). It just seems like my heart was so tenderized by the love and passion of Christ that my eyes often run with tears, especially when I pray or worship. They aren't the kind that leave the burning eyes and stuffy nose, but rather sweetly refreshing ones - I call them Spirit tears and I'm convinced there's a physical and chemical difference in them. I've tried hard to get "over it" but think after this long they're probably going to hang around as long as I do.

For those who have been following this, thanks for taking the time to walk with me this far. And I don't mean to be overly dramatic, but if, for any reason, I can't write soon, I wanted to leave you with these words from a precious old hymn - the one I would like sung at the end of my memorial service if I ever have one. It's a song that first taught me what "grace" really means and the lyrics go like this (accentuation points are mine):

Not What My Hands Have Done
by George William Martin - 1862
Not what my hands have done can save my guilty soul,
Not what my toiling flesh has borne can make my spirit whole.
Not what I feel or do can give me peace with God,
Not all my prayers and sighs and tears can bear my awful load.
Thy grace alone, O God, to me can pardon speak.
Thy power alone, O Son of God, can this sore bondage break.
No other work save thine, no other blood will do,
No strength, save that which is divine can bear me safely through.
I bless the Christ of God, I rest on love divine,
And with unfaltering lip and heart I call this Savior mine.
'Tis He that saveth me and freely pardon gives.
I love, because He loveth me, I live because He lives.

Grace, mercy, and peace to each of you, my friends. "It is well with my soul" - but oh, I do hope to write again soon!

with love,
Val

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Day 24-11

Am getting more nervous but excited, too, since I decided to try for my Distinguished Expert Qualification in rifle this morning. My dear friend Chris will witness and my dear husband and son will spot and keep my magazines loaded. For those of you unfamiliar with shooting ranges, the NRA has a qualifications book that covers most firearms. You choose a weapon type, take a basic safety class and then begin working through a series of qualifications/examinations to establish expertise. As you complete a series you receive a "rocker" bar and the final test is the DE, which must be witnessed by a certified firearms instructor. I began with handgun and completed my DE in March of 2009 (started in Sept of 2009) so I'm way behind on completing my rifle series. I want to brag about Chris just a bit, I've mentioned her before and she's the instructor who got me into this. She was the first woman in the US to become triple certified in handgun, rifle, and shotgun. Since then a small number of women have joined those ranks, I believe two or three more women and some men as well from Doug's Cherry Creek Shooting Center. I don't have the statistics at the moment, but it at least was the case last year that a disproportionately high number of all the DE qualifications nationwide have come from CCSC. If you have interest at all, I'd encourage you to check it out. Please be aware they place a very high focus on safety and run a tight range in terms of regulations, knowing that when a sport is safe it's fun. There are a wide variety of classes to choose from, ways to get started without investing initially in equipment, you can even rent eye and ear protection. Plus, it's in the beautiful Cherry Creek State Park, which I enjoy as much in winter. Here's their website if you have interest in checking it out: http://www.familyshootingcenter.com/ and here is Chris' email if you're interested in checking on her firearm classes: hotbrass@comcast.net.

We're still running 90 mph around here trying to get everything ready and as usual, "it ain't gonna happen". But progress is better than nothing, and we're celebrating an early Father's Day this year so will have our summer feast (we try to have a feast for every season!) tonight. In many ways I'll be sad to see this particular day end but since they always do I'll send a note once again tomorrow. Please know that, although there's really nothing to do except wait and pray, I appreciate so very much all the kind offers of help. Who knows what we'll end up needing, but I promise to let you all know if something comes up and thank you, thank you again for the offers!

Day 23-10

Well, it seems like the train is picking up speed a bit, and I guess that's to be expected. Had a stellar day again yesterday, spent the morning working with my son and husband (we're trying to get our house ready to put on the market), had lunch with my boss, John (did I tell you yet how great he is? I'm half convinced God brought him to Denver especially for me!), spent the dinner hour with all the kids and grands except Kendra and had ice cream at the new Maroon Bells on Arapahoe Rd. - highly recommended new ice cream, coffee, and chocolates shop. Today will be the hardest work day, have much to catch up and wrap up - and I'm short on words for some reason, but wanted to share this beautiful Psalm with you:

Psalm 103 (New International Version)
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
6 The LORD works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses, his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.
15 As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children-
18 with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven, and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the LORD, you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts, you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works everywhere in his dominion. Praise the LORD, O my soul.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Day 22-9

Well, I have several happy things to report this morning! First, my son is home, yay! He always makes me laugh and you know what they say about laughter being good medicine. We got home from the airport to a message from the surgeon who did my biopsy, saying the final report had come back (finally!!) and the tumor samples have been diagnosed as osteo meningioma, the type that is usually benign. I know from the second surgeon it's not really the "final" but was so encouraged that I slept through the night! You know what they say about needing beauty sleep? It's true and you can imagine the opposite effect. Then finally, I got the sweetest note from our CEO about my blog site and it made my heart start flying around. Oh, AND I received a gorgeous planter arrangement from him, our former CFO, and all my dear exec admin friends at CH2M HILL. I just don't think you could ask for a better day than that and I'll say again, I'm so incredibly blessed.

Today I have a little story to tell you about a serendipitous event last year that led to the fulfillment of a life long dream. The dear gentleman (in every sense of the word) I had the great privilege of supporting his last few years at CH, Bud Ahearn, had a bit of a problem with his heart in April of 2009. One of his procedures was done so quickly that none of his family had time to get here so I went over to Sky Ridge in the afternoon to sit with him a bit. (If you read this, Bud, you were sleeping so won't remember it.) When I left the hospital there was a woman in the lobby with a large jewelry table (Silpada) and something caught my eye so I stopped to look and chat with her. Somewhere during the conversation she mentioned she also taught piano and I said, oh, I've wanted all my life to play the piano, never had a chance and still would love to do that. (Gary had bought me a used piano a couple of years ago.) Well, I bought something from her and when she called back to check with me, asked if I was really interested in learning to play because she had a spot for an adult. After about 30 seconds thinking of all the reasons I shouldn't and couldn't right now I said well...yes! So for the first time in my life I sat with a piano teacher and had the great joy and challenge of practice. Long story short, I stuck with it and today can actually play Pachelbel Canon in D and Fur Elise - not perfectly, of course, but at least recognizably. Now the second part of this story is just as good.

The day I walked into Kathlyn Gogarty-Baines' home (piano teacher) there was this absolutely gorgeous painting hanging over their sofa that drew me like a magnet. When I commented on it Kathlyn said "It's by my husband, Dix Baines" who just happens to be an extremely accomplished and well known artist. So every day I got to go for a lesson I was also exposed to the art gallery in their home. In the spring they had a fund-raiser for their daughter who also happens to be a LaCrosse star and I put an entry in for a raffle and won a beautiful photo by their OTHER daughter (who is a professional photographer) of a waterfall near Hanging Lake at Glenwood. I believe in passing blessings along so someone else who attended the Water for People fundraiser event this year is now the lucky owner of that. But this year they had another Lacrosse fundraiser, I again submitted an entry and look what I won!

This is a large print giglee on canvas of the McPollin Farm, $750 value! I felt like I won the lottery. I've fallen in love with Dix's work and for my 60th BD last year I bought myself my first original, a gorgeous little 5x8 of a fall bridge/river scene. If you're interested in Dix I'll include his website below, he's been commissioned for several really large projects and at least one of his paintings is hanging in the Broadmoor. But for those of you would-be or are artists (yes, Gwen, I'm talking to you) he also offers group painting lessons in his home at some convenient day or evening times during the week for $15 a session. That would honestly be worth the time just to go and watch and listen to him, I think it's the bargain of the century. Dix and Kathlyn are wonderful, delightful artists so just look at the blessing that flowed from one little visit to the hospital. Here is their website: http://dixbaines.com/.

Well, you know I mentioned Bud earlier and I want to tell you just a bit about him because he's one of those people who leave a ripple effect of goodness that just keeps going. Bud's career profile reads like something from a very prestigious "Who's Who". The first part of his career he served in ever upward evolving positions for the Air Force until he ended up as the Air Force Civil Engineer. When he retired from the Air Force CH had the great privilege of hiring him and he served in such positions as President of our Transportion Group and Vice Chairman of the Board. Bud's real passion, though, is leadership development and at his retirement event last year we heard story after story about how people's lives had been changed because he has the gift of connecting with individuals at a heart level, teaching them the things that really matter, and then encouraging and mentoring them as they begin their upward spiral. I have seen Bud give the same attention to high school age people as he does to his distinguished colleagues and he has inspired and motivated so many, including me, to dig deeper, think more critically, care more deeply, and work harder. Those lessons, in turn, are passed to others so when I say that Bud has had a global effect I truly mean it since he's worked all over the world. His honors and distinctions literally take up pages and they haven't stopped yet. Bud was recently elected to the National Academy of Engineering, an honor awarded to very few professionals - he will be inducted in October. And, although Bud is retired now, he continues to serve as both a representive and ambassador for our company as he serves and attends his professional society functions and teaches in universities. I would count him among the top ten most influential people in my life, and there's another blessing - thank you, Bud!